Day 35 post-transplant
1/3 of the way to our "100 Days" of survival
I think I must be losing my mind. I am treating my husband as if he were a child, and not in a nice, nurturing, good parenting way. I use threats and circular logic on him. “If you don’t eat, you’ll have to go back to the hospital. How can you stay out of the hospital if you don’t eat?”
1/3 of the way to our "100 Days" of survival
I think I must be losing my mind. I am treating my husband as if he were a child, and not in a nice, nurturing, good parenting way. I use threats and circular logic on him. “If you don’t eat, you’ll have to go back to the hospital. How can you stay out of the hospital if you don’t eat?”
I’ve always wondered why some people treat others that way. It just dawned on me. This behavior comes from a need to have control and knowing you have none at all. It is a last resort, an act of desperation.
Roger looks up at me with sad, sick eyes and I know he would eat if he could. He does want to stay out of the hospital and he wants us to behave like the grownups, good communicators, and good partners we’ve always been. There are so many things making his life miserable these days. I’m sad to know that I’ve become one of them. All in all I’m just another brick in his wall.
Listen to: Another Brick in the Wall -- Pink Floyd
Hey Now...don't get down on yourself!! You know Roger doesn't feel that way. You are his rock, not a brick in the wall.
ReplyDeleteI absolutely agree with Taylor. It's a difficult position to be in, I am sure. You're trying to coax him into eating, worrying about him and doing everything you can to keep him moving forward. Roger knows that. And I am sure he's trying to eat all he can and wants to keep out of the hospital. You're both doing your part. Keep sight of your health too, Candi! I'm proud of you both. What a long, hard road you've been marching down!
ReplyDeleteWe agree with Taylor and Tammy!! Stay strong and know that you are doing everything in your power to help Roger. He is a strong person who has overcome so much. He loves and cherishes you. We all do!! Give Roger our love!!
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